On Fear...

"I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain." -Dune(?)

Not so random randomness

It feels good to take control of my life.
It makes me feel alive to feel.
A life without love is not worth living.

On writing... sorta (or, the text message I sent by accident)

The writing is the point
The point in an action
The message unsent
Like words unspoken
Only through the pen
A release in the voice
So much to say
So little time
So many second guesses
Delete.

The existential crisis

We are brought up to believe we are capable of accomplishing anything. But when? How soon is the right time to make the jump?

I really don't know anymore.

I just need time to sit and think.

It begins.

Work starts tomorrow...

Fly Little Wing

So I've been in Chicago for a week now, but things have been odd for the last three weeks or so. I had my wisdom teeth out and then fell terribly ill with some derivation of strep throat/tonsillitis. It should say something that I spent two weeks on the couch without even thinking about updating. But now I am back to the real world and moving in to my new apartment. It's crazy to think about all the things that must be done in the course of moving! I just keep buying things, and I don't even know if they're the right things. I also want to make sure this place feels like home, and I want to find the random things that are somewhere in the chaos. But as out of control as it can sometimes feel, this place is beginning to feel homey. As I continue to meet nice people and be productive, I realize how out of it I have been and how nice it is to be in the world again.

Hello

Hello from Chicagoland. I've been out in my new apartment for nearly a week. And it's beginning to come together.