In the abyss

I feel like I am in a creative abyss. I went out to take out the trash and wound up trying to dance on my lawn in flip flops. First I tried to work on a routine I've been practicing, but then I decided I couldn't be confined by choreography and did some other things. I'm still searching for the routine that will make me feel better and feel complete as a dancer. Or the style of dance. So that after practice, I will feel spent and not want to keep dancing. Unless love as a dancer is this feeling I keep feeling where I want to dance always no matter what.